Lesson 32: The Mystic Cave
Even in your best efforts, your “ascent” can be daunting and the human mind is easily overwhelmed with fear. Mount Everest is littered with dead bodies. And yet, try you must.
As with all effort, setback is part of the path. I have found that it is a very common experience that when setback occurs, it is so easy for your mind to give in, to say “what’s the use,” to retreat back to the periphery of your life while engaging in the same old techniques you used before to beat back the hum-drum and nagging self-doubt. This is often the time that you come in contact with the void in your life, the sense of purposelessness, your emptiness. The old you is signaling for a change. You realize there is something greater…you just don’t know what it is. I want to say with as much conviction as I can how fortunate you if you have encountered this realm in spite of the fact it is like being suspended between two worlds.
As you have witnessed many times before, when this occurs, you will watch your outer life (periphery) come under attack, undermined, and often, come under intense and radical change. You lose a job, get divorced, experience financial instability or heartbreak, or find yourself in the most god-awful circumstances feeling annihilated. How could this have happened? It seems so unbearable.
What is going on here?
I know this is going to sound ridiculous but these moments represent the crack in the old you whose purpose it is to reveal the new you. And as difficult as it is, as frightened as you may be, you can trust that something better is on the way. It is not an accident in spite of what you have been taught.What is going on here is that the hidden consciousness within you is taking a stand and creating a collapse of the old you so that the new you can be born, so that a new reality can surface out of the downfall. But, in reality, it is not collapsing…something is trying to be born! But what happens next depends on which direction you are going! Are you going back to the old you (outer) or are you willing to move towards the new you (inner)?
“She saw a spiritual immensity
Pervading and encompassing the world-space
As ether our transparent tangible air
And through it sailing tranquilly a thought
As smoothly glides a ship nearing its port
Ignorant of embargo and blockade
Confident of entrance and the visa’s seal.
It came to the silent city of the brain
Towards its accustomed and expectant quay,
But met a barring will, a blow of Force
And sank vanishing in the immensity.
After a long vacant pause another appeared
And others one by one suddenly emerged,
Mind’s unexpected visitors from the Unseen
Like far-off sails upon a lonely sea.
But soon that commerce failed, none reached mind’s coast.
Then all grew still, nothing moved any more:
Immobile, self-rapt, timeless, solitary
A silent spirit pervaded silent Space.
In that absolute stillness bare and formidable
There was glimpsed an all-negating Void Supreme
That claimed its mystic Nihil’s sovereign right
To cancel Nature and deny the soul.
Even the nude sense of self grew pale and thin:
Impersonal, signless, featureless, void of forms
A blank pure consciousness had replaced the mind.”
What can you do?
Through an act of your greatest will, you must move toward the mystic cave within. You must be willing as best you can to abandon the drama, the old, the purposeless and go within. The collapse of the outside of you will ignite the birth of the inside of you if you have the courage and endurance to continue the journey.
This inward motion, this monumental “ascent” to greater spaces cannot be photographed and posted on Facebook. No one cares whether or not you choose to seek the mystic cave within yourself. Another breath within. Another step within. Another tear shed in the name of truth. Do not give up. Setbacks occur. Painful memories slip uninvited into your mind, unannounced and begging to be fed by past pain. Another breath. Another moment. Stumbling along the way with no guarantees. Each inhalation expanding a little longer…and a little longer.
“She was no more a Person in a world,
She had escaped into infinity
What once had been herself had disappeared;
There was no frame of things, no figure of soul,
A refugee from the domain of sense,
Evading the necessity of thought,
Delivered from Knowledge and from Ignorance
And rescued from the true and the untrue,
She shared the Superconscient’s high retreat
Beyond the self-born Word, the nude Idea,
The first bare solid ground of consciousness;
Beings were not there, existence had no place
There was no temptation of the joy to be
Unutterably effaced, no one and null,
A vanishing vestige like a violet trace
A faint record merely of a self now past,
She was a point in the unknowable,
Only some last annulment now remained
Annihilation’s vague indefinable step:
A memory of being still was there
And kept her separate from nothingness:
She was in That but still became not That.”
The mystic cave inside of you that will drown your hurts and pains into everlasting peace is your true reality. The inside of you governs the outside of you and not the other way around. The inside of you creates the outside of you. But until the creation of that center inside of you, the mystic cave, is sought, you will only know fear, uncertainty, instability and a host of unique sufferings that no medicine can cure and no religion can heal. If the center is damaged, then the periphery will be damaged. Your outside is a mirror of your inside. In the meantime, remaining hidden and unknown to you, that mystic cave inside of you will orchestrate the circumstances outside of you needed to bring you to that realization.
But don’t give up. Another breath. And then another. And then another. Cry your way through it but at the end, be still. And then another breath. And then another.
The old you is buried in a cemetery of peace and quiet and the real you stands the chance of awakening.