Lesson 12: Endurance
As momentum is gained, energy is needed to sustain your effort. It’s no different than making sure you have enough gas in the car.
But there’s no need to be naive about this journey. It is going to take courage and determination and the ability to take the next step when your legs are paralyzed and your mind has you cornered. It is all about the lived experience. It’s not about talking about it or writing about it or reading about it! It’s about living it and having the courage to get back up 7 times after you’ve been knocked down 6. It’s about endurance.
“Behind appeared a grey carved mask of Night
Watching the birth of all created things
A hidden Puissance conscious of its force,
A vague and lurking Presence everywhere,
A contrary Doom that threatens all things made,
A Death figuring as the dark seed of life,
Seemed to engender and to slay the world.”
It is time to wake up and realize what you are dealing with! You cannot see that you are the author of your “fall” but you are! No one is doing anything to you! You are doing it to yourself!
“The Fiend was visible but cloaked in light;
He seemed a helping angel from the skies:
He armed untruth with Scripture and Law;
He deceived with wisdom, with virtue slew the soul
And led to perdition by the heavenward path.
A lavish sense he gave of power and joy,
And, when arose the warning from within,
He reassured the ear with dulcet tones
Or took the mind captive in its own net;
His rigorous logic made the false seem true,
Amazing the elect with holy lore
He spoke as with the very voice of God,
The air was full of treachery and ruse;
Truth-speaking was a stratagem in that place;
Ambush lurked in a smile and peril made
Safety its cover, trust its entry gate:
Falsehood came laughing with the eyes of truth.”
It is time to wake up and realize what you are dealing with! You cannot see that you are the author of your “awakening” but you are! No one is doing anything to you! You are doing it to yourself! You are the “Fiend!”
Endurance comes from the mind, not the body. Endurance will rise up in you when you decide to rise. You don’t have to understand how your life will expand and evolve. It all begins with choosing for it to. Developing the center, the inner strength and the endurance will be a necessity for there will be moments when all seems lost.
“But he endured, stilled the vain terror, bore
The smothering coils of agony and affright;
Then peace returned and the soul’s sovereign gaze,
To the blank horror a calm Light replied:
Immutable, undying and unborn,
Mighty and mute the Godhead in him woke
And faced the pain and danger of the world.
He mastered the tides of Nature with a look:
He met with his bare spirit naked Hell.”