LESSON 28: THE VOICE SPEAKS AGAIN
Your willpower is so often zapped by what you consider to be reality that progress is often slow, tedious and hardly discernible. Why continue if you can’t see progress? But growth and evolution ressemble walking through a fog. You don’t know you’re getting wet until you go inside and realize the dampness of your clothes. But to understand this, you first have to walk outside.
In spite of the now clear Voice within her, Savitri, like you (and me), felt no relief and replied,
“My strength is taken from me and given to Death.
Why should I lift my hands to the shut heavens
Or struggle with mute inevitable fate
Or hope in vain to uplift an ignorant race.”
The Voice responded,
“Is this enough, O spirit?
And what shall thy soul say when it wakes and knows
The work was left undone for which it came?
Or is this all for thy being born on earth
Charged with a mandate from eternity,
A listener to the voices of the years
A follower of the footprints of the gods,
To pass and leave unchanged the old dusty laws?
Shall there be no new tables, no new Word,
No greater light come down upon the earth
Delivering her from her unconsciousness
Man’s spirit from unalterable Fate?
Cam’st thou not down to open the doors of Fate,
The iron doors that seemed for ever closed.
And lead man to Truth’s wide and golden road
That runs through finite things to eternity?
Is this then the report that I must make,
My head bowed with shame before the Eternal’s seat
His power he kindled in thy body has failed.
His labourer returns, her task undone?”
Does your task remain undone? Did you not come here to experience the universal trinity of unthreatened joy, a knowing consciousness and a fulfilled existence? With each effort, however small, the barrier between your inner world and the outer world becomes increasingly thinner and thinner. You fall and you get back up again, each time becoming wiser and stronger. You wrestle with an unbending mind in your meditation practice feeling defeated. But still, you practice. If there is a sin in this work, that sin is discouragement. And you are going to find that the true seeker of this work is going to be far more exposed than others. Escape into nirvana, out-of-body experiences or repeating namaste in yoga class is not going to do it. You have to be here. It is work and requires intention and attention. But it is why you are here! So, be bigger than your mind’s library of judgments, beliefs and opinions and see the task before you.
Once prodded by the Voice and challenged with the shame of the task being left undone, Savitri answered,
“I am thy portion here charged with thy work.
As thou myself seated for ever above,
Speak to my depths, O great and deathless Voice,
Command, for I am here to do thy will.”
And the Voice replied again,
“Remember why thou cam’st:
Find out thy soul, recover thy hid self,
In silence seek God’s meaning in thy depths,
The mortal nature change to the divine.
Open God’s door, enter into his trance.
Cast Thought from thee, that nimble ape of Light:
In his tremendous hush stilling thy brain
His vast Truth wake within and know and see
Cast from thee sense that veils thy spirit’s sight:
In the enormous emptiness of thy mind
Thou shalt see the Eternal’s body in the world,
Know him in every voice heard by thy soul,
In the world’s contacts meet his single touch;
All things fold thee into his embrace.
Conquer thy heart’s throbs, let thy heart beat in God:
Thy nature shall be the engine of his works,
Thy voice shall house the mightiness of his Word;
Then shalt thou harbour my force and conquer Death.”
An now, again. Just for a moment, be still. Just breathe. Let every thought, every sensation, every memory float away like a leaf on a stream. Have a friend, a loved one, read slowly to you the passage form the Voice beginning with, “Is this enough, O spirit?”. Just be still and listen to what stirs within you. Invite the voice of your hidden self. Will you be satisfied if your task remains undone? Will the life you are living be enough for you?
“Remember why thou cam’st.”
And regardless of your answer, could I interest you in more? Much more.